A POEM
UNREQUITED LOVE: Part-2
Road2Redemption
Welcome back my partner in crime, let me take you back in
time!
This is the continuation of my journey, with an increasing
feel of agony!!
Days go by as I wait for the days to end!
And makes me more perplexed about the new behavioral trend!!
I keep telling myself that it is just a matter of time!
But then I only would wonder if ‘letting go’ would be a
mistake of mine!!
I was going out of my mind and I felt like I needed a
savior!
May be he can tell me what to do, as a one-time favor!!
Why the feeling, why the liking and the affection? I really
got no clue about!
If only someone could tell me that I should run away, get
close or just shout!!
Jealousy is a new feeling for me and it is a feeling that
kills me!
Hence, rather than being around, I try to let myself just
be!!
I seek the attention, Oh! It seems I crave for it
& believe you me it makes me feel more like shit!!
I could have never imagined that even I had such a side!
Or maybe all this while, this part of me just managed to
hide!!
I used to think that I am in control but now that’s the very
thing I do not have!
The more I try to want to control, further I lose it and
feel even more naive!!
No matter how much it hurts, I know that it is high
time for me to take a stand!
But, in reality, all I wish is for her hand to be in my
hand!!
Her happiness, her smile is all I seem to care about!
For the same reason, I must now leave her at a roundabout!!
It is becoming clear that my presence will only make it
worse for her!
I think that is possibly because ‘not being with her’ makes
me suffer!!
Oh how I wish she felt the same for me,
How I wish she would have a special name for me,
How I wish I could tell myself that it is ‘love’ in her eyes
that I see!!
Why do I have her 24 hours new channel in my head?
It is there when I am free, when am busy, even when I decide
to break bread!!
It is not a crime but it feels like it, I never thought I could,
but I am badly hit!!
A part of me always wanted a part of this, now all I wonder
is what did I Miss??
I never knew it would be so bad, I never thought I could
feel so sad!
Looking at how I have been, it seems as if I have
committed a sin!!
I do not think I can take it anymore, may be it is time to seek
out for the shore,
Hope the time is right to mention, that I have started on my
road to redemption.
Wow.. Is the word which I could relate after reading this!.. May be every you &I could relate this to there emotion..lovely saying varun. Cheers!
ReplyDeleteWow!!! Seeing this side of you is new to many including me... Your words are simply superb and conveys your feelings spot on.
ReplyDeleteThis is so beautiful. The vulnerability, the love, the frustration, the anger, the defeat and every emotion possible in that poem screamed out at me.
ReplyDeleteTrue to your word, this drove me insane. It took me to a place I just got out of. But this time, it felt OK to feel vulnerable. :)
The sole act of writing is so courageous. You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for. smile emoticon Every individual needs to let their words scream and what better way than writing it for the world to see. :)
This poem was also so empowering in a way I cannot explain, but showed me so many things I never thought I would see that way. Thank you so much for penning this down. You are brave and your soul divine. :)
Today, you are in such a better place I think. And that is worth everything. :)
This is something which can touch hearts of the people who could relate to feelings expressed through words in such a beautiful way.. loved this!!
ReplyDeleteintense..expression..love and pain..goes together according to it.
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