Wednesday, March 16, 2016

A POEM: UNREQUITED LOVE: Part-2 Road2Redemption


A POEM
UNREQUITED LOVE: Part-2
Road2Redemption
Welcome back my partner in crime, let me take you back in time!
This is the continuation of my journey, with an increasing feel of agony!!
Days go by as I wait for the days to end!
And makes me more perplexed about the new behavioral trend!!



I keep telling myself that it is just a matter of time!
But then I only would wonder if ‘letting go’ would be a mistake of mine!!
I was going out of my mind and I felt like I needed a savior!
May be he can tell me what to do, as a one-time favor!!
Why the feeling, why the liking and the affection? I really got no clue about!
If only someone could tell me that I should run away, get close or just shout!!

Jealousy is a new feeling for me and it is a feeling that kills me!
Hence, rather than being around, I try to let myself just be!!
I seek the attention, Oh! It seems I crave for it
& believe you me it makes me feel more like shit!!
I could have never imagined that even I had such a side!
Or maybe all this while, this part of me just managed to hide!!
I used to think that I am in control but now that’s the very thing I do not have!
The more I try to want to control, further I lose it and feel even more naive!!


 
No matter how much it hurts, I know that it is high time for me to take a stand!
But, in reality, all I wish is for her hand to be in my hand!!
Her happiness, her smile is all I seem to care about!
For the same reason, I must now leave her at a roundabout!!
It is becoming clear that my presence will only make it worse for her!
I think that is possibly because ‘not being with her’ makes me suffer!!
Oh how I wish she felt the same for me,
How I wish she would have a special name for me,
How I wish I could tell myself that it is ‘love’ in her eyes that I see!!

Why do I have her 24 hours new channel in my head?
It is there when I am free, when am busy, even when I decide to break bread!!

It is not a crime but it feels like it, I never thought I could, but I am badly hit!!
A part of me always wanted a part of this, now all I wonder is what did I Miss??
I never knew it would be so bad, I never thought I could feel so sad!
Looking at how I have been, it seems as if I have committed a sin!!
I do not think I can take it anymore, may be it is time to seek out for the shore,
Hope the time is right to mention, that I have started on my road to redemption.


Saturday, January 16, 2016

UNREQUITED LOVE: Part-I

UNREQUITED LOVE: Part-I
{ A Poem depicting the journey of emotional turmoil in phases }

What is this? I really do not know; what I want, I am not able to show!
Whatever it is, it is taking away my essence and flow!!

So what am I to think of it, is it normal?
Coz all it does is to make me even more formal
Others say you are one of a kind, with a brilliantly perceptive mind!
Now, that part of me, hides somewhere even I cannot find!!

Whom do I talk to, who is that person who will help me connect!
If I had any clue, that would be the one I select!!

Minutes of happiness is followed by sadness and irritation!
How long will it stay, how will I manage; wish someone would mention!
I strongly feel that what can really help me is a therapy session!!

What is the confusion? I seem to know!
The very knowledge makes me realize how it was better to not know!!

NOTICE NOTICE NOTICE! I seem to take note of everything!
It makes me wonder why and wish that there was nothing!!




On a full moon night, I seek the darkness and on a dark night, I look out for the moon!
Reading what I wrote would probably even make you wish that it should end soon!!

If you have been there, you understand my pain!
You are part of my journey now, we boarded the same train!
Comment on the poem as half-way journey isn’t much of a gain!
Part-2 is on its way and trust me, it will drive you insane!!